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A Sheep’s Journey Through Psalms -27

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A Devotion on Psalm 27

As I sit with Psalm 27, I feel its words wash over me like a steadying hand in a storm. David’s song here is raw, honest, and brimming with a faith that speaks directly to my heart. It’s a psalm that meets me in my fears, my hopes, and my longing to be close to God.

“The Lord is my light and my salvation—whom shall I fear?” (v. 1). These opening words hit me hard. How often do I let fear creep in? Fear of failure, fear of what others think, fear of the unknown. Yet David reminds me that God is my light—He illuminates the dark corners of my heart and guides my steps. He’s my salvation, not just for eternity but for every moment I feel overwhelmed. When I lean into this truth, the question “whom shall I fear?” becomes a bold declaration. No fear can stand against the God who holds me.

I’ve had days when it feels like “evildoers assail me” (v. 2), not always in the form of people, but in doubts, anxieties, or circumstances that threaten to unravel me. David’s confidence in verse 3—“Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear”—challenges me to trust God’s protection. I think of times when life felt like a battlefield, yet God was there, a fortress I didn’t even realize I was standing in until the dust settled. He’s been faithful before; He’ll be faithful again.

What grips me most is David’s heart-cry in verse 4: “One thing I ask from the Lord, this only do I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple.” This verse stops me in my tracks. What’s the “one thing” I’m chasing? Success? Comfort? Approval? David’s singular focus was God’s presence, His beauty. I want that kind of heart—a heart that says, “God, You are enough.” I picture myself sitting in His presence, not rushing, not striving, just gazing at His beauty. It’s a reminder to slow down, to prioritize prayer and worship, to let His love be my anchor.

When I read verses 7-10, I hear David’s vulnerability: “Hear my voice when I call, Lord; be merciful to me and answer me.” I’ve prayed prayers like that, desperate for God to show up. There’s comfort in knowing that even David, a man after God’s own heart, felt abandoned at times. Yet he clings to the truth that God will never forsake him, even when others do. I’ve felt the sting of rejection, but God’s promise in verse 10—“Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will receive me”—is a balm. He’s the Father who never walks away.

As the psalm closes, David’s words in verse 14 resonate like a gentle nudge: “Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” Waiting is hard. I want answers now, solutions now. But God’s timing is perfect, and His strength sustains me while I wait. I’m learning to trust that He’s working, even when I can’t see it.

Prayer:

Lord, You are my light, my salvation, my fortress. Thank You for being my safe place, even when fears and doubts loom large. Help me to seek You above all else, to crave Your presence more than anything this world offers. Teach me to wait on You with courage and hope, trusting that You are always near. Let Your beauty fill my heart today. Amen.

Reflection:

What’s the “one thing” you’re seeking right now? How can you carve out time today to dwell in God’s presence, even for a few moments? Let Psalm 27 remind you that He is your light, your strength, and your refuge—no matter what you face.

A Sheep’s Journey Through Psalms -13

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Devotional on Psalm 13: A Cry from the Shadows, Answered in Light

Scripture Reading: Psalm 13 (NRSV) “How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? … But I trusted in your steadfast love; my heart shall rejoice in your salvation.”

As dawn breaks over a weary landscape, imagine a soul standing in a rocky wilderness, cloaked in shadows, gazing toward a horizon that refuses to brighten. The air is heavy with questions, each one a jagged stone in the heart: How long, O Lord? This is the raw, anguished cry of Psalm 13, a song by David that echoes through the ages, capturing the Christian soul wrestling with divine silence. Yet, within its six verses, it moves from despair to defiant trust. This journey is one undertaken by each believer somewhere along the road of life.

The psalm opens with a storm of sorrow: “How long will you hide your face from me?” (v. 1). Picture a child searching for their father’s face in a face shrouded by a veil, the absence piercing like a winter wind. David’s lament is not polite; it is visceral, accusing God of forgetfulness. St. Augustine, in his Expositions on the Psalms, sees this cry as a mirror of our humanity: “The voice of the soul in distress is not presumption but truth. God permits us to cry out, for in our cries, we seek Him.” Augustine reminds us that God is not offended by our questions but invites them, for they draw us closer to His heart.

In verses 3–4, David’s imagery shifts to life and death: “Consider and answer me, O Lord my God! Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep the sleep of death.” Envision eyes dimming like fading embers, threatened by the encroaching darkness of despair. Here, David pleads for divine illumination, a theme dear to St. Clement of Alexandria, who wrote, “Christ is the true light that scatters the shadows of the soul.” For Clement, this plea is prophetic, pointing to Jesus, the Light of the World, who awakens us from spiritual death. As Christians, we read this verse through the lens of the resurrection, where Christ’s victory over the grave becomes our hope in every dark valley.

Then, like a sudden sunrise breaking through storm clouds, the psalm pivots in verse 5: “But I trusted in your steadfast love; my heart shall rejoice in your salvation.” This is not naive optimism but a bold act of faith. Picture a weary traveler, battered by winds, planting a flag of hope in barren ground. St. John Chrysostom marvels at this shift: “See how the psalmist, though pressed by affliction, leaps to praise! Faith transforms the heart before the eyes see relief.” Chrysostom teaches us that trust in God’s hesed—His covenantal, unfailing love—is a weapon against despair, wielded even when the battle rages fiercest.

The psalm closes with a vow: “I will sing to the Lord, because he has dealt bountifully with me” (v. 6). Imagine a lone voice rising in song, faint at first, then swelling like a river fed by unseen springs. This is the Christian response to suffering—not denial, but defiance, rooted in the assurance of God’s goodness. For the early church fathers, this verse prefigures the Eucharist, where we sing of Christ’s bountiful gift of Himself, even amid trials. As Origen notes, “The soul that trusts in God sings, for it already tastes the banquet of salvation.”

Reflection:

Psalm 13 invites us to bring our rawest cries to God, trusting that His silence is not absence. Like David, we may stand in shadows, but the cross assures us that Light has dawned. Where are you crying, “How long?” Bring that ache to Jesus, the One who wept in Gethsemane yet rose in glory. Let your lament become a song, for His steadfast love never fails.

Prayer:

Lord Jesus, Light of my soul, hear my cries when darkness presses in. Teach me to trust Your unfailing love, even when I cannot see Your face. Transform my lament into praise, and let me sing of Your salvation, now and forever. Amen.

2025 Plans

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So, 2024 did not go as planned. From the devastation of Hurricane Helene doing far more property damage than can be repaired in the foreseeable future, to changing vocations to work as a chaplain with a different company and various crises that popped in and out of our lives, 2024 saw Ta Ethne on the back burner.

We enter 2025 filled with optimistic expectations. A blog a week is the goal – 52 hopefully helpful essays that will run the gamut from inspirational to informative and maybe even inquisitive. With new, added responsibilities in work life this is ambitious, but I feel necessary to continue the work.

So many have reached out to encourage me to write another book. Maybe, just maybe, 2025 will let us catch our breath long enough to begin the process of note taking, compiling and beginning a rough draft. If one has suggestions on a particular topic, shoot us an email.

Remember, no matter how dark it may seem, Christ’s light banishes the darkness. Perhaps, as dark as 2024 was for so many, it was fitting for the year to end with Christmas and the first day of Hanukkah to both be on the same day.

God bless you with His grace

Light In The Darkness

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I first wrote this 3 years ago. With all that has happened in our world since then, I felt it appropriate to repost today.

Light In The Darkness

Isaiah 50:10-11
10 Who is among you that feareth the LORD, that obeyeth the voice of his servant, that walketh in darkness, and hath no light? let him trust in the name of the LORD, and stay upon his God.11 Behold, all ye that kindle a fire, that compass yourselves about with sparks: walk in the light of your fire, and in the sparks that ye have kindled. This shall ye have of mine hand; ye shall lie down in sorrow.

There are times in our lives when, as Christians, we are called to serve God in the midst of darkness. There are times when it is difficult to see very far ahead. Like driving on a dark highway on a moonless night in the middle of a rainstorm, our lives sometimes feel as if we are going nowhere fast and we are not sure if we will make it to our destination.

It is interesting to me that many Christians desire to be “overcomers”, but do not want much to overcome. We want to go to heaven, but we do not want to die to go there. We want our faith increased, without having to rely on anyone. We want all good times, all the time, and that is simply not how life works. Life is filled with melody and misery, high times and hard times. You may be experiencing a dark time right now, what many saints of the past termed “a dark night of the soul.” You may be at a point right now where you aren’t able to make sense of what is happening in your life. There are times, seasons in our lives, where we have studied the lessons, learned our formulas, memorized the promises of the Bible and think we have it all figured out — and suddenly we are plunged into a deep, deep darkness.

What do you do when the lights go out? When deep darkness comes into your life?
It has been said that in school one learns the lessons first and tests second. In life, we take the test first and learn the lessons second. Hopefully, today you will come to see that there are lessons to be learned when the lights go out.

Who is among you that feareth the LORD, that obeyeth the voice of his servant, that walketh in darkness, and hath no light? let him trust in the name of the LORD, and stay upon his God

In this verse, the Bible is talking about a faithful servant of God. This person loves and fears God. He or she is being obedient. This is not a backslider or someone who has wandered off from God. This is an active Christian who loves the Lord and is being obedient to God’s voice, yet they are in a dark place.

There is a distorted idea out there that once a person becomes a Christian it is all honey and no bees. Not true. It rains on both the just and the unjust. There are tens of thousands of Christians who love God and are obediently serving Him who are experiencing dark times. Over a hundred thousand are martyred across the globe annually.

Job said, “God has put darkness in my path” (Job 19:8) Habakkuk exclaimed, “How long shall I cry out and you not hear?” (Hab. 1:2) John the Baptist sent messengers to Jesus from the cell in which he was imprisoned asking Him if He really was the Messiah. Each of these godly men came to a point in their life that they did not fully comprehend. They experienced a time of darkness, when they did not understand what was happening to them nor why God was allowing it.

When you are in darkness it doesn’t necessarily mean you have sinned or that you are outside of God’s will for your life. It might be that God has put you in a dark time so that His light shines brighter and you can see Him more clearly.

Faith is like film. It is developed in the dark. We grow the most spiritually when we are forced to look to Jesus alone for help. You will never know how much you need Jesus until Jesus is all you have. As Christians, we are called to live by faith – not by explanations. Our verse tells us to trust or lean on the name of the Lord. Even when tough times come. If you do not have the conviction that God is good all the time then you will not stand when darkness falls. Job said – “even if He slays me I will trust in Him.” When walking in darkness we must trust, lean on, God and His promises – which never fail.

When you are in the dark you don’t need explanations. You need God. An explanation sometimes makes things worse. Sometimes God removes all the answers to give us Himself. A relationship with Him is more important than reasons. In his blindness, John Milton wrote Paradise Lost. In prison John Bunyon wrote Pilgrim’s Progress. In exile, John wrote Revelation. In the dark, God develops our faith. Never doubt in the dark what you learned in the light. The test of our character is what we do, how we react, in the dark. God is still God when the darkness comes. He is still reigning on His throne. He still works out things for good for those who love Him and are called according to His purpose.

Some things, some truths in life, are only learned in the dark. For example, have you ever said, “the stars are out tonight?” Did you know they are out in the daytime but you cannot see them because of the sun’s brightness? There are some treasures, some beautiful things that are only revealed in the dark.

Psalm 148:3 says the stars are there to praise the Lord. Do you have a star in your darkness with which to praise God?

Here are some treasures of the dark. In the light, we see things that are near. In the dark, we see far away – light years away into outer space. We may think our brightest thoughts in the day, but we think our deepest thoughts at night. In the light, we see more clearly. In the dark, we see further. There are some aspects of our future God reveals to us in the dark. If you are praying for God to reveal to you what is next up for your life, be prepared for dark times so that He can show you things that are far off. Just ask Daniel and John about that.

Behold, all ye that kindle a fire, that compass yourselves about with sparks: walk in the light of your fire, and in the sparks that ye have kindled. This shall ye have of mine hand; ye shall lie down in sorrow.

There is a danger in the dark that Scripture warns us about. One of our most dangerous temptations is that we will be tempted to light our own fire. That is the warning of verse 11. If God has placed darkness around you, then you need to wait on God to remove it. It is better to be in the dark with God than to stand alone in man-made light. Do not ever give into despair during dark times. Darkness cannot overcome light. Remember, you don’t open a door to let darkness in. You open a door to spill out light.

If light has been removed from the situations in your life, then God, in His wisdom, has allowed it so that your faith can be developed and so that He can show you a glimpse of the future. If God is the One who has placed darkness in your path than do not be so foolish as to light your own fire. A man made fire is deceptive. It is not a sure guide to follow. God says that if we light our own fire in the middle of a God ordained darkness we will suffer.

Abraham and Sarah could not wait. Abraham created his own fire with Hagar to produce Ishmael. Untold centuries of suffering have followed his decision. Has darkness come into your life? Are you waiting on God or trying to light your own fire?
Even in the darkest of nights the sun will still rise and chase it away. Eventually God’s light will shine again and the lessons you learn in the dark will last for all eternity. You will see things and know truths that you had never seen or known before. Weeping may endure for a night says Psalm 30:5, but joy will come in the morning.

Remember this, when you are walking on a sunny day, feeling the warmth of the sun’s rays, those rays are 8.3 minutes old when they reach your face. Even though you feel the sun’s warmth, you have never experienced its full intensity. The sun’s surface temperature is approximately 10,000° F. Its inner core is in excess of 27,000,000 °F.(https://www.space.com/17137-how-hot-is-the-sun.html) You have felt her warmth but not her intensity.

Likewise, we can feel the warmth of God’s presence but we haven’t experienced the full intensity of His glory yet. There is coming a day when we will, but now we only see a fraction of it. When the lights go out God is still there, shining. He wants to give you a star to praise Him more. Our trials become stars in order to praise the Lord. When the lights go out, develop your faith, lean on the Lord, trust in Him and you will see further than you ever have before.

Light In The Darkness

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Light In The Darkness

Isaiah 50:10-11
10 Who is among you that feareth the LORD, that obeyeth the voice of his servant, that walketh in darkness, and hath no light? let him trust in the name of the LORD, and stay upon his God.11 Behold, all ye that kindle a fire, that compass yourselves about with sparks: walk in the light of your fire, and in the sparks that ye have kindled. This shall ye have of mine hand; ye shall lie down in sorrow.

There are times in our lives when, as Christians, we are called to serve God in the midst of darkness. There are times when it is difficult to see very far ahead. Like driving on a dark highway on a moonless night in the middle of a rainstorm, our lives sometimes feel as if we are going nowhere fast and we are not sure if we will make it to our destination.

It is interesting to me that many Christians desire to be “overcomers”, but do not want much to overcome. We want to go to heaven, but we do not want to die to go there. We want our faith increased, without having to rely on anyone. We want all good times, all the time, and that is simply not how life works. Life is filled with melody and misery, high times and hard times. You may be experiencing a dark time right now, what many saints of the past termed “a dark night of the soul.” You may be at a point right now where you aren’t able to make sense of what is happening in your life. There are times, seasons in our lives, where we have studied the lessons, learned our formulas, memorized the promises of the Bible and think we have it all figured out — and suddenly we are plunged into a deep, deep darkness.

What do you do when the lights go out? When deep darkness comes into your life?
It has been said that in school one learns the lessons first and tests second. In life, we take the test first and learn the lessons second. Hopefully, today you will come to see that there are lessons to be learned when the lights go out.

Who is among you that feareth the LORD, that obeyeth the voice of his servant, that walketh in darkness, and hath no light? let him trust in the name of the LORD, and stay upon his God

In this verse, the Bible is talking about a faithful servant of God. This person loves and fears God. He or she is being obedient. This is not a backslider or someone who has wandered off from God. This is an active Christian who loves the Lord and is being obedient to God’s voice, yet they are in a dark place.

There is a distorted idea out there that once a person becomes a Christian it is all honey and no bees. Not true. It rains on both the just and the unjust. There are tens of thousands of Christians who love God and are obediently serving Him who are experiencing dark times. Over a hundred thousand are martyred across the globe annually.

Job said, “God has put darkness in my path” (Job 19:8) Habakkuk exclaimed, “How long shall I cry out and you not hear?” (Hab. 1:2) John the Baptist sent messengers to Jesus from the cell in which he was imprisoned asking Him if He really was the Messiah. Each of these godly men came to a point in their life that they did not fully comprehend. They experienced a time of darkness, when they did not understand what was happening to them nor why God was allowing it.

When you are in darkness it doesn’t necessarily mean you have sinned or that you are outside of God’s will for your life. It might be that God has put you in a dark time so that His light shines brighter and you can see Him more clearly.

Faith is like film. It is developed in the dark. We grow the most spiritually when we are forced to look to Jesus alone for help. You will never know how much you need Jesus until Jesus is all you have. As Christians, we are called to live by faith – not by explanations. Our verse tells us to trust or lean on the name of the Lord. Even when tough times come. If you do not have the conviction that God is good all the time then you will not stand when darkness falls. Job said – “even if He slays me I will trust in Him.” When walking in darkness we must trust, lean on, God and His promises – which never fail.

When you are in the dark you don’t need explanations. You need God. An explanation sometimes makes things worse. Sometimes God removes all the answers to give us Himself. A relationship with Him is more important than reasons. In his blindness, John Milton wrote Paradise Lost. In prison John Bunyon wrote Pilgrim’s Progress. In exile, John wrote Revelation. In the dark, God develops our faith. Never doubt in the dark what you learned in the light. The test of our character is what we do, how we react, in the dark. God is still God when the darkness comes. He is still reigning on His throne. He still works out things for good for those who love Him and are called according to His purpose.

Some things, some truths in life, are only learned in the dark. For example, have you ever said, “the stars are out tonight?” Did you know they are out in the daytime but you cannot see them because of the sun’s brightness? There are some treasures, some beautiful things that are only revealed in the dark.

Psalm 148:3 says the stars are there to praise the Lord. Do you have a star in your darkness with which to praise God?

Here are some treasures of the dark. In the light, we see things that are near. In the dark, we see far away – light years away into outer space. We may think our brightest thoughts in the day, but we think our deepest thoughts at night. In the light, we see more clearly. In the dark, we see further. There are some aspects of our future God reveals to us in the dark. If you are praying for God to reveal to you what is next up for your life, be prepared for dark times so that He can show you things that are far off. Just ask Daniel and John about that.

Behold, all ye that kindle a fire, that compass yourselves about with sparks: walk in the light of your fire, and in the sparks that ye have kindled. This shall ye have of mine hand; ye shall lie down in sorrow.

There is a danger in the dark that Scripture warns us about. One of our most dangerous temptations is that we will be tempted to light our own fire. That is the warning of verse 11. If God has placed darkness around you, then you need to wait on God to remove it. It is better to be in the dark with God than to stand alone in man-made light. Do not ever give into despair during dark times. Darkness cannot overcome light. Remember, you don’t open a door to let darkness in. You open a door to spill out light.

If light has been removed from the situations in your life, then God, in His wisdom, has allowed it so that your faith can be developed and so that He can show you a glimpse of the future. If God is the One who has placed darkness in your path than do not be so foolish as to light your own fire. A man made fire is deceptive. It is not a sure guide to follow. God says that if we light our own fire in the middle of a God ordained darkness we will suffer.

Abraham and Sarah could not wait. Abraham created his own fire with Hagar to produce Ishmael. Untold centuries of suffering have followed his decision. Has darkness come into your life? Are you waiting on God or trying to light your own fire?
Even in the darkest of nights the sun will still rise and chase it away. Eventually God’s light will shine again and the lessons you learn in the dark will last for all eternity. You will see things and know truths that you had never seen or known before. Weeping may endure for a night says Psalm 30:5, but joy will come in the morning.

Remember this, when you are walking on a sunny day, feeling the warmth of the sun’s rays, those rays are 8.3 minutes old when they reach your face. Even though you feel the sun’s warmth, you have never experienced its full intensity. The sun’s surface temperature is approximately 10,000° F. Its inner core is in excess of 27,000,000 °F. You have felt her warmth but not her intensity.

Likewise, we can feel the warmth of God’s presence but we haven’t experienced the full intensity of His glory yet. There is coming a day when we will, but now we only see a fraction of it. When the lights go out God is still there, shining. He wants to give you a star to praise Him more. Our trials become stars in order to praise the Lord. When the lights go out, develop your faith, lean on the Lord, trust in Him and you will see further than you ever have before.