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A Sheep’s Journey Through Psalms -56

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Trusting God in the Midst of Fear: A Reflection on Psalm 56

Dear friend, have you ever felt like the world was closing in on you, with fears and uncertainties hounding your every step? I know I have. There have been seasons in my life where anxiety seemed to lurk around every corner—job losses, health scares, or even relational conflicts that left me feeling vulnerable and alone. In those moments, I’ve turned to Psalm 56, a raw and honest cry from David when he was captured by the Philistines in Gath. This psalm isn’t just ancient poetry; it’s a lifeline for anyone navigating fear. Let’s walk through it together, verse by verse, and see how David’s words can inspire us to shift from terror to trust in our loving God.

David begins with a desperate plea: “Be gracious to me, O God, for man tramples on me; all day long an attacker oppresses me” (Psalm 56:1, ESV). Here, he’s not sugarcoating his situation. He’s on the run, surrounded by enemies who want to “swallow him up.” Expositorily speaking, this sets the stage for the psalm’s central theme: human opposition versus divine mercy. David recognizes that people—flesh and blood—can be relentless in their pursuit, twisting words and plotting harm (verses 5-6). But he doesn’t stop at complaint; he pivots to prayer, appealing to God’s grace as his only refuge. As Matthew Henry explains in his commentary, “This petition includes all the good for which we come to throne of grace. If we obtain mercy there, we need no more to make us happy.” What a comfort! In our own lives, when critics or circumstances press in, we can echo this: God’s mercy isn’t earned; it’s freely given, and it’s enough to sustain us.

Moving deeper, David confronts his fear head-on: “When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I have put my trust; I will not be afraid. What can flesh do to me?” (verses 3-4). This is the heart of the psalm—an expository gem showing faith as an active choice amid emotion. David doesn’t deny his fear; he admits it, then counters it by anchoring in God’s trustworthy word. Charles Spurgeon, in his treasury of David, captures this beautifully: “It is a blessed fear which drives us to trust. Unregenerate fear drives from God, gracious fear drives to him.“I’ve found this true in my own story. When panic rises—like during a late-night worry session—I remind myself to trust not in my strength, but in God’s promises. John Piper echoes this in his reflections: “Psalm 56:3 says, ‘When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.’ Notice: it does not say, ‘I never struggle with fear.’ Fear strikes, and the battle begins.” Faith isn’t the absence of fear; it’s the decision to trust despite it.

As the psalm progresses, David paints a vivid picture of God’s intimate care: “You have kept count of my tossings; put my tears in your bottle. Are they not in your book?” (verse 8). This verse reveals God’s sovereignty over our wanderings and sorrows. David imagines God collecting his tears like precious wine, recording every trial. It’s a poetic reminder that nothing escapes God’s notice—not our restless nights or hidden griefs. Matthew Henry expands on this tenderly: “God has a bottle and a book for his people’s tears, both the tears for their sins, and those for their afflictions. He observes them with tender concern.”Friend, think about that: Your tears aren’t wasted. In my toughest times, this truth has brought me to my knees in gratitude, knowing God isn’t distant but deeply involved.

The psalm culminates in triumphant praise: “In God I trust; I shall not be afraid… For you have delivered my soul from death, yes, my feet from falling, that I may walk before God in the light of life” (verses 10-13). David shifts from plea to proclamation, vowing to offer thanks because God has already proven faithful. As David Platt notes in his teaching on this psalm, “To trust in God is to rightly value His word. David trusted God by believing that God would actually do what He had promised to do.” This arc shows us how trials refine our faith, leading to a life of walking in God’s light—free from ultimate defeat.

So, my dear reader, if fear is knocking at your door today, take heart from Psalm 56. Like David, let’s choose trust over terror, knowing our God is greater than any foe. As Spurgeon encourages, “Faith brings forth praise. He who can trust will soon sing.”May we sing today, praising the One who bottles our tears and turns our fears into faith.

Lord, help us to trust You more deeply. Amen.

A Sheep’s Journey Through Psalms -27

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A Devotion on Psalm 27

As I sit with Psalm 27, I feel its words wash over me like a steadying hand in a storm. David’s song here is raw, honest, and brimming with a faith that speaks directly to my heart. It’s a psalm that meets me in my fears, my hopes, and my longing to be close to God.

“The Lord is my light and my salvation—whom shall I fear?” (v. 1). These opening words hit me hard. How often do I let fear creep in? Fear of failure, fear of what others think, fear of the unknown. Yet David reminds me that God is my light—He illuminates the dark corners of my heart and guides my steps. He’s my salvation, not just for eternity but for every moment I feel overwhelmed. When I lean into this truth, the question “whom shall I fear?” becomes a bold declaration. No fear can stand against the God who holds me.

I’ve had days when it feels like “evildoers assail me” (v. 2), not always in the form of people, but in doubts, anxieties, or circumstances that threaten to unravel me. David’s confidence in verse 3—“Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear”—challenges me to trust God’s protection. I think of times when life felt like a battlefield, yet God was there, a fortress I didn’t even realize I was standing in until the dust settled. He’s been faithful before; He’ll be faithful again.

What grips me most is David’s heart-cry in verse 4: “One thing I ask from the Lord, this only do I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple.” This verse stops me in my tracks. What’s the “one thing” I’m chasing? Success? Comfort? Approval? David’s singular focus was God’s presence, His beauty. I want that kind of heart—a heart that says, “God, You are enough.” I picture myself sitting in His presence, not rushing, not striving, just gazing at His beauty. It’s a reminder to slow down, to prioritize prayer and worship, to let His love be my anchor.

When I read verses 7-10, I hear David’s vulnerability: “Hear my voice when I call, Lord; be merciful to me and answer me.” I’ve prayed prayers like that, desperate for God to show up. There’s comfort in knowing that even David, a man after God’s own heart, felt abandoned at times. Yet he clings to the truth that God will never forsake him, even when others do. I’ve felt the sting of rejection, but God’s promise in verse 10—“Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will receive me”—is a balm. He’s the Father who never walks away.

As the psalm closes, David’s words in verse 14 resonate like a gentle nudge: “Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” Waiting is hard. I want answers now, solutions now. But God’s timing is perfect, and His strength sustains me while I wait. I’m learning to trust that He’s working, even when I can’t see it.

Prayer:

Lord, You are my light, my salvation, my fortress. Thank You for being my safe place, even when fears and doubts loom large. Help me to seek You above all else, to crave Your presence more than anything this world offers. Teach me to wait on You with courage and hope, trusting that You are always near. Let Your beauty fill my heart today. Amen.

Reflection:

What’s the “one thing” you’re seeking right now? How can you carve out time today to dwell in God’s presence, even for a few moments? Let Psalm 27 remind you that He is your light, your strength, and your refuge—no matter what you face.

A Sheep’s Journey Through Psalms-11

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Devotional on Psalm 11: The Lord is Our Refuge

Scripture Reading: Psalm 11 (ESV)
“In the Lord I take refuge; how can you say to my soul, ‘Flee like a bird to your mountain, for behold, the wicked bend the bow; they have fitted their arrow to the string to shoot in the dark at the upright in heart; if the foundations are destroyed, what can the righteous do?’ The Lord is in his holy temple; the Lord’s throne is in heaven; his eyes see, his eyelids test the children of man. The Lord tests the righteous, but his soul hates the wicked and the one who loves violence. Let him rain coals on the wicked; fire and sulfur and a scorching wind shall be the portion of their cup. For the Lord is righteous; he loves righteous deeds; the upright shall behold his face.”

Reflection: Trusting in God’s Sovereign Refuge
Psalm 11 is a powerful declaration of trust in God amid a world filled with fear, chaos, and evil. Imagine a stormy night, the sky torn by jagged lightning, the wind howling like a pack of wolves. In this chaos, the wicked lurk, their bows drawn taut, arrows gleaming with malicious intent, aimed at the hearts of the upright. The ground trembles as the foundations of order—justice, truth, hope—seem to crack and crumble. Voices whisper urgently, “Flee! Escape like a sparrow to the fleeting safety of the mountains!” Yet, in this vivid scene of peril, David stands unmoved, his heart anchored in a fortress far greater than any earthly refuge. “In the Lord I take refuge,” he declares, his voice steady against the gale.

This Psalm paints a dramatic picture of faith under fire. David’s world is no less turbulent than ours—where cultural decay, personal trials, or unseen enemies threaten to overwhelm. The temptation to flee to temporary shelters—fear, distraction, or self-made solutions—looms large. But David’s eyes are fixed upward, to the Lord enthroned in His radiant temple, seated on a throne that no storm can shake. God’s piercing gaze cuts through the darkness, seeing every hidden arrow, every scheming heart. His justice is a blazing fire, ready to rain coals and sulfur on the wicked, while His love is a sheltering wing, enfolding the righteous in unshakable safety.

Historic Christian voices, like Augustine and Calvin, saw this psalm as a vibrant tapestry of God’s providence. Augustine marveled at God’s all-seeing eye, which no darkness can obscure, urging believers to trust in divine protection. Calvin saw David’s resolve as a beacon of hope, pointing to God’s ultimate triumph over evil. This psalm also whispers of Christ, the Righteous One, who faced the cross’s arrows yet trusted the Father’s plan, securing a refuge for all who run to Him. The promise that the upright will “behold his face” is a radiant vision of eternal glory, where we’ll stand in the light of God’s presence, forever safe. David, the psalmist, faces a dire situation: the wicked are poised to attack, and his advisors urge him to flee, to escape the danger like a bird flying to the safety of a mountain. Yet David’s response is resolute: “In the Lord I take refuge.” His confidence is not in earthly strongholds but in the unshakeable sovereignty of God.

This psalm speaks to us today when life feels unsteady—when the “foundations” of society, morality, or even personal security seem to crumble. The temptation to flee, to seek safety in our own strength or worldly solutions, is strong. But David reminds us that our true refuge is the Lord. He is not distant or detached; He reigns from His holy temple, His throne in heaven. His eyes see every injustice, and His justice is perfect. The wicked may seem to have the upper hand, but God’s judgment is sure, and His love for the righteous is unwavering.

Application: Standing Firm in Faith

Picture yourself in the storm of your own trials—perhaps a biting betrayal, a crushing fear, or a world that mocks what is good. Instead of fleeing to fragile shelters, plant your feet in the fortress of God’s righteousness. His throne is unshaken, His eyes miss nothing, and His love for you burns brighter than the fiercest tempest. Let this truth embolden you to live boldly for Him, performing deeds of righteousness that shine like stars in the night.
When the world pressures you to despair or flee from trials, remember that your refuge is in the Lord. He sees your struggles, tests your faith to refine it, and promises that the upright will one day behold His face—a glorious hope of eternal communion with Him. Instead of running to temporary shelters—whether fear, distraction, or self-reliance—anchor your soul in God’s unchanging character. He is righteous, He loves righteous deeds, and He is your protector.

Prayer
Lord, my Refuge, when storms rage and arrows fly, anchor my soul in Your unshakable throne. Let me see Your radiant temple above the chaos, Your eyes watching over me with fierce love. Burn away my fears with Your justice and warm my heart with Your promise that I will one day behold Your glorious face. Through Christ, my Savior, embolden me to stand firm and live righteously. Heavenly Father, in this world that often feels chaotic and threatening, help me to take refuge in You alone. Strengthen my faith to trust Your sovereign care, even when the foundations seem to shake. Thank You for Your perfect justice and steadfast love. May I live righteously, reflecting Your character, and rest in the hope of one day beholding Your face through Christ my Savior. Amen.

Challenge
Today, identify one area where fear or pressure tempts you to “flee” from trusting God. Paint a mental picture of God’s throne above it, unshaken and radiant. In prayer, surrender this trial to Him, and take one vivid step of faith—a kind word, a bold stand, or a righteous deed—to reflect His light in the darkness and take one practical step to live out a righteous deed that honors Him.

A Heart Hungry To Worship Part 11

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An army of deer led by a lion is more to be feared than an army of lions led by a deer[1]

Chapter 10

Timothy’s Story

To live up to high expectations that are placed on you is not an easy task. It places a heavy burden on any person to be told from childhood that a great destiny awaits you. You try your best not to disappoint those who believe in you. Sometimes you try so hard that your life becomes a duty instead of an adventure. A young man in the New Testament understood that very well. His name was Timothy and great things were prophesied about him.

Born to a family whose father was not a Christian, Timothy was grounded in the faith by his mother and grandmother who were believers.[2] The apostle Paul served as a type of surrogate father to him, especially in spiritual matters.[3] Timothy excelled in faith and virtue[4], becoming a trusted partner of the great Apostle.

Timothy had a cheerful disposition, took on challenging assignments in the ministry and aided Paul through many campaigns. He was a teacher and a leader that Paul could count on. Handpicked by Paul to serve in places like Ephesus[5],Troas[6]and Corinth[7], Timothy seemed to have it all together. Yet, hanging over all that he did, was the specter of expectations yet unfulfilled.

Twice in Paul’s first letter to Timothy reference is made to prophecies made about the young minister.[8] These prophecies are what put a burden of expectation upon Timothy. Having a mentor who is a living legend expecting great things from you is daunting enough. Having prophecies about you that come from the Holy Spirit – that leads to a lot of pressure. While Timothy was by nature a pleasant and trustworthy person, he is also described as having physical weaknesses[9], or infirmities, and timidity.[10] He seems to have a non-confrontational personality and yet he was challenged by Paul over and over to confront those who were wrong in their beliefs and teachings. Some of the things Paul instructed Timothy to do were:

  • Correct false teaching[11]
  • Fight for the true faith[12]
  • Point out errors in false teaching[13]
  • Discipline himself to godly living[14]
  • Proclaim the gospel publically[15]
  • Guard God’s Word[16]
  • Authoritatively lead[17], and
  • Do the work of an evangelist[18]

Paul admonishes Timothy to be a good soldier[19] who would fight for the faith and stand firm on the truths of God. For a personality such as his, this would be difficult. Timothy would struggle between who he was and what God was calling him to become.

This is a very familiar scenario for many Christians. While not everyone has clear prophecies uttered over them, all of God’s children have a service He calls them to perform. All of us have some knowledge of what God wants us to be for Him and the discrepancy between that and who we currently are is sometimes very great.

Timothy had performed admirably for Paul up to the time of the second letter. Like Matthias, Timothy had performed his duty. In order to go on, to go further in the ministry, Timothy was going to have to learn how to serve God out of love. He needed to learn to go beyond duty, to anticipate and take the lead over his churches. By this time in his life, Timothy should not have to wait until orders from Paul arrived. He should have the confidence in his training, his skills, his God and be the leader he was prophesied to become. Timothy was ready to graduate to the next level of leadership and Paul was pushing him along.

Timothy needed confidence. When a person is acting out of duty, following orders, there is a safety net built in. If things go wrong you can always fall back on the old excuse, “I was just following orders.” To seize the reigns and lead is to cut away the safety rope and take responsibility. That takes courage. It takes ownership. Timothy needed to be reminded of the God who believed in him. He needed to be reminded of the God who equipped him with gifts and talents. He needed to be reminded of his training, of his faith honed from his upbringing with Paul. He needed reminding of how he had forged this faith through his adventures and travels. Timothy needed confidence in who and what he was – a minister of God. He needed to stop worrying about his young age, what his detractors thought of him, his reputation, or his physical constitution.

Paul’s letters to Timothy are equally encouraging and scolding. It was time for Timothy to step up and become the man God intended him to be. Paul’s final charge to Timothy, to do the work of an evangelist[20], is a call for him to stop hiding behind his comfort zone and engage people face to face with the gospel message. That is what Timothy was called to do. Yes, he was a great pastor. Yes, he knew how to lead a church. To do the work of an evangelist meant going outside the church and engage lost people wherever they were.

Whenever God calls one of His children to do something for Him, it always entails moving beyond a person’s comfort zone. It always includes developing new skills, new talents, and new approaches. God uses all of our experiences and all of the natural abilities He has already gifted us with, but He moves us beyond all of those things so that we become completely dependent on Him for effectiveness and so that He alone receives all the glory.

For us, it is a call to trust Him. It is a call to believe that we can accomplish all things through His power as He has promised. It is a call to go beyond duty. It is a call to do more than obey because we are scared of failing, afraid of punishment, or fearful of ridicule. God wants us to obey Him out of love, not just out of duty. Repeatedly Paul encourages Timothy not to be ashamed[21] of testifying of the Lord but to proclaim boldly the life-changing message of Jesus Christ. Paul knows that when Timothy starts serving out of love and not out of duty or fear of letting someone down that he will be freed to accomplish great things for the Lord.

Timothy will serve out of love. He will accomplish great things for the Lord. Church history tells of some of the things Timothy accomplished in his lifetime. We know that he led Ephesus to become a bastion of orthodoxy, for we read in Revelation 2:2-3 of their testing of those who claimed to speak in the name of Christ. We also know that Timothy is spoken of in the highest way in other New Testament letters. In his letter to the church at Philippi, Paul writes,

“But I trust in the Lord Jesus to send Timothy to you shortly, that I also may be encouraged when I know your state. For I have no one like-minded, who will sincerely care for your state. For all seek their own, not the things which are of Christ Jesus.  But you know his proven character, that as a son with his father he served with me in the gospel.”[22]

Paul says that Timothy has the same mind set as his own. He says that Timothy does not seek his own comfort, his own advancement, but looks out for the welfare of others. He has a self-sacrificing spirit. Very few compliments for a Christian to receive are better than this one. His character, Paul says, is proven. It is an established fact. This spirit of sincerely caring for others can only come from love, not duty. Timothy becomes a person that lives up to all his potential, just as God foresaw.

The letter to the Hebrews mentions Timothy as well.

            “Know that our brother Timothy has been set free, with whom I shall see you if he comes shortly.”[23]

This seemingly obscure reference has a major revelation in it. Timothy was admonished by Paul not to be ashamed of the gospel, not to be embarrassed by his imprisonment, to go out of his comfort zone and engage the world. He did so and paid the price. Like his mentor, Timothy was thrown into prison for preaching the good news of Jesus Christ. That is what the term in Hebrews means when it says he was “set free.”

The young man who was once ashamed of his advisor’s imprisonment had now followed his example. Timothy threw off his timid nature and entered the spiritual battle for the souls of men with abandon. He would pay the ultimate price. History records that at age 69, Timothy scolded some citizens of Ephesus who were celebrating the idolatrous feast of Catagogion. This so exasperated the people that they fell upon him with their clubs, and beat him. He died from the beating two days later.

Timothy went from timid preacher to thundering ambassador, from an ashamed follower to an imprisoned disciple, from dutiful apprentice to loving encourager. Timothy’s transformation gives encouragement and hope to all followers of Jesus Christ.

To know what is right and do it is obedience. To know what is right and desire to do it stems from love. The Holy Spirit produces such desire in followers of Christ as they let him transform their lives. The Spirit is the one that brings about a life full of joy and completeness, satisfaction and celebration. Salvation is much more than life after death. It is also a fulfilling life now; one lived out with a love that comes from God above.

[1] Chabrias 410-375 B.C.

[2] 2 Timothy 1:5, 3:15

[3] 1 Timothy 1:2,18

[4] 1 Timothy 1:5

[5] 1 Timothy 1:3

[6] Acts 20:4-6

[7] 1 Corinthians 16:10-11

[8] 1 Timothy 1:18, 4:14

[9] 1 Timothy 5:23

[10] 2 Timothy 1;6-8

[11] 1 Timothy 1:3-5

[12] 1 Timothy 1:18-19, 6:12

[13] 1 Timothy 4:6

[14] 1 Timothy 4:7

[15] 1 Timothy 4:13, 2 Timothy 4:1-2

[16] 1 Timothy 20-21, 2 Timothy 1:12-14

[17] 2 Timothy 2:14

[18] 2 Timothy 4:5

[19] 2 Timothy 2:3

[20] 2 Timothy 4:5

[21] For example, 2 Timothy 1:8

[22] Philippians 2:19-22

[23] Hebrews 13:23

A Heart Hungry To Worship Part 10

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Let us remember that, as much has been given us, much will be expected from us, and that true homage comes from the heart as well as from the lips, and shows itself in deeds.[1]

Chapter 9

Matthias’ Story

Matthias’ parents took him to church while he was still in his mother’s womb. When he was a young child, he made a profession of faith and the church baptized him. Matthias was a good kid. It was not that he possessed a strong faith that made him act good, but more because he was afraid of disappointing people by doing wrong. He did everything expected of him out of a sense of duty.

Sailing through high school, Matthias set off for college, bound and determined to make something of his life. The years of watching his parents serve at small, struggling churches left him disappointed with his faith. Seeing the business side of churches and experiencing his family’s generosity being taken advantage of repeatedly, left Matthias determined to become self-sufficient. All of his life, Matthias had people ask him, “Are you going to be a preacher like your father?” That was the last thing Matthias wanted. His plan was to manage a top-flight hotel somewhere in the Caribbean. Funny, how life had not turned out quite that way for him though.

At college, Matthias visited other denominations, to see and experience their forms of worship. Still disillusioned with organized churches, he even tried some small group studies on campus but they did very little for him spiritually.

When Billy Graham came into the area to hold a crusade during his junior year, Matthias was very interested. He had always respected Graham’s ministry and character, and the opportunity to get involved in something of this magnitude was too good to pass up.

Signing up to be a counselor at the crusade required a lot of work. Various churches across the city held training classes, so it was easy for Matthias to find one close to campus. He enjoyed the training and felt excited to be part of something fresh and new.

During the final class, though, Matthias received the surprise of his life. The instructor stopped his teaching, looked straight at him and said, “Young man, God has told me to tell you to stop running from Him. He is calling you to be a missionary for Him.” Matthias was very quick to protest. “Not me. I am going to be a hotel manager. You must be mistaken.” The instructor replied, “Do with it what you will, I am just a messenger.”

Matthias left, somewhat shaken up. “This person doesn’t even know me,” he thought, “Why would he say something like that?” He proceeded to help with the crusade and finished out his junior year. Try as he might, he could not forget the words spoken to him by the instructor.

During the summer break, Matthias decided to visit a friend in Europe. It would be a nice vacation, and though he would not admit it, Matthias was hoping that a change of scenery would help him forget the instructor’s words for a little while. Since his friend was an agnostic, he figured that it would be a very good place to silence his questioning thoughts.

Matthias’ trip went fantastic. Old castles, wonderful museums, different cultures to experience; it was his first time out of the country and he loved every minute of it. The day before his return to the Sates, his friend suggested visiting some new friends she had made in a neighboring town.

Those friends turned out to be Catholic priests training to go to Africa as missionaries. “What an odd coincidence,” Matthias thought. They quickly began to discuss the commonalities and differences of their respective faiths and, as night drew into early morning, an amazing thing occurred. One of the priests looked at Matthias and said, “Young man, you are running away from God. You need to return home. God is calling you to be a missionary for Him.”

Matthias found himself thoroughly shaken. It was almost the exact same words spoken to him by the instructor many months before. No one knew of that earlier conversation. There was no way these priests on another continent could have known. This had to be more than coincidence but Matthias was not ready to listen.

After finishing his vacation, Matthias returned home. He decided to go to a different church in a neighboring city. The pastor was new to the church and no one who attended there knew him. “A fresh start,” Matthias thought, “is just what I need.” Matthias enjoyed the service very much. He made an appointment to talk with the pastor about beliefs and to investigate the process of joining the church.

During his meeting with the pastor, the two discussed their beliefs and Matthias found that the church held views similar to his own. They talked amicably for almost twenty minutes and then something startling happened. The pastor looked over his desk at Matthias and said, “Young man, God is calling you into the ministry but you keep running away from Him.” Matthias stared in disbelief and then, finally, began the journey he had been avoiding all along, the journey to following God’s will for his life.

It would take a few more months before Matthias finally surrendered his desires for his future security over to God. It was a struggle to relinquish his dreams, but when he did, when the last barrier fell, Matthias felt the deep and abiding peace of knowing God’s pleasure with him for the first time in many years. Twenty something years later, Matthias still follows God’s calling and has never once looked back or regretted his decision.

Gone were his fears of not being able to make a good living. Gone were his desires to become someone of note, to make his mark on the world. They were replaced by a knowledge of who he was and his purpose in life. He found how God wanted him to worship and to serve. I know, because Matthias’ story is mine.

After many years of obedience out of a sense of duty, came the freedom that obedience from a sense of devotion and love brings.  Finding purpose and approval from God far outweighs any approval needed from man and changes lives, like Matthias’ and mine, forever.

No longer burdened by trying to live up to expectations of family, no longer seeking approval from peers, service to God became a joy instead of drudgery. I came to realize that duty without love or joy meant that I didn’t value or respect the one I was serving – Jesus. That was a very harsh reality to wake up to. As I came to understand the sacrifice Jesus made for me, as I came to understand the depths to which Jesus went, my heart became filled with gratitude. I realized, not just academically, but personally, the love God has for me. That love chased away all the fears that had plagued me. The Bible says that, “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.”[2]

As I yielded control of my life, my future over to God without reservations or restrictions, His love washed over me and drove away all those fears. No longer did I worry about others would say or think. No longer would I wonder if I could be successful or good enough. I had placed my life into the hands of the One who knows everything, the One who, “works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”[3] I finally comprehended the truth of Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

The New Testament also has a story of a young man whom God called into the ministry. A man who had great things prophesied about him. A man who felt the burden of the great expectations placed on him. One who struggled with who he was and how God wanted to use him. It is the story of Timothy, a most remarkable young man.

[1] Theodore Roosevelt, Proclamation 466, Thanksgiving Day 1901

[2] 1 John 4:8

[3] Romans 8:28

Hymn Devotions Day 13 – Amazing Grace

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DAY 13 –  AMAZING GRACE

               I find it ironic that almost everyone sings a version of Amazing Grace. Just perusing music sites, it seems every star has released a version of this song at one time or another, even though most of those people have never experienced God’s saving grace.

‘Twas grace that taught my heart to fear.

To fear God is the beginning of wisdom. Fear of His just punishment for sin. When I reflected on John 3:17-18, it made John 3:16 come alive. I was already condemned and facing eternal punishment.

And grace my fears relieved.

God’s grace, given to me when I turned my life over to His Son’s Lordship, granted to me eternal life. There is now no condemnation for I am safely in the family of God. So precious, that grace given the hour, the very second I first believed.

Upon hearing the call of God, our Shepherd, here in this world, we will experience His reality face to face in the next. His word, His promises, secures our hope for an eternity with Him in heaven.

Unless a person has experienced God’s saving grace, they really have no idea what this song is about. Far from just being a good hymn, it hammers home to us that our only hope is to be found in Christ alone.

            Lord, Your grace is totally amazing. That You could extend grace and mercy to us just completely overwhelms me. You, the perfect, holy Creator of the Universe, extending grace to one such as myself, selfish, arrogant, sinful is simply … amazing.

            Thank you for saving me by Your grace and extending to me the faith necessary to believe. 

AMAZING GRACE by John Newton

Amazing grace how sweet the sound

That saved a wretch like me

I once was lost but now am found

Was blind but now I see

 

‘Twas grace that taught my heart to fear

And grace my fears relieved

How precious did that grace appear

The hour I first believed

 

Through many dangers, toils and snares

I have already come

‘Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far

And grace will lead me home

 

The Lord has promised good to me

His word my hope secures

He will my shield and portion be

As long as life endures

 

Yea when this flesh and heart shall fail

And mortal life shall cease

I shall possess within the veil

A life of joy and peace

 

The world shall soon dissolve like snow

The sun refuse to shine

But God who called me here below

Shall be forever mine

 

When we’ve been there ten thousand years

Bright shining as the sun

We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise

Than when we’ve first begun

Without Finding Fault

/ taethne

One of my favorite Bible verses comes from James, where the apostle tells us that if we lack wisdom, to go to God and ask Him because He gives it generously. The next part of that verse adds, “without finding fault.” This is so important. When we go to God admitting that we need His advice and direction, He doesn’t make fun of us, laugh at us or grudgingly grant our request. God delights in us having enough sense to ask Him – in being obedient in asking Him.

We don’t have to come afraid of being ridiculed. We don’t have to listen to a lecture of how we should have already known better. He gives without finding fault. Can we go to God today, seeking His counsel, without fear? I can, how about you?

Weekly Writing Challenge: From Mundane to Meaningful – A Conference Surprises

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17 years of meetings. Another conference in another city. Different topic, different speakers but overall the same. A few notes written, a few ideas stolen and then life returns to normal. Except this week. I wasn’t expecting much out of the conference. In fact, I didn’t even remember what the theme of this conference was. I just thought it would be a nice retreat with my family since this was one of the few all of us could attend. Little did I know I would be ambushed by something profound and meaningful.

It turns out that the theme for this conference was “Sifted”. It was a marriage retreat in disguise. From speakers to counselors and testimonies of peer couples, we were exposed to a time whose goal was to strengthen marriages. Even worse, the conference had built in accountability. We were given homework to do both individually and as a couple, and then in the next session we discussed our answers.

I then understood why they had counselors. We each had to (after a seminar on the 5 greatest needs in a man’s and a woman’s life) grade ourselves on how well we thought we were doing in each area. Then we graded our spouse on how well they were doing meeting our needs. Then the twist – we had to get alone with our spouse and reveal the answers to each other – needless to say they did not always agree! On the upside, I believe each of us left the conference having been open and honest, as well as beginning to work on issues that needed addressing.

If I had known in advance what the conference was really going to be about, I would not have gone. Too much pride, too much fear of vulnerability, too much worry about peer approval. Now I am glad I did go. My family will be better for it because I learned what I needed to change.

Now if only all conferences could be so meaningful…